I’ve been working on a paper for my Information Policy class for the better part of two days now. Before I actually got into the writing part, I actually read up on what I wanted to write about quite a bit- a rare thing. Problem is, I cannot focus on writing more than a paragraph a time. I have never taken notes in my life, nor have I ever highlighted a page. I’m trying to pull all this information together and I just can’t do it. I will instead go to Fark a few hundred more times before I type in a few more words. Granted, the paper is due on Thursday and most likely I will finish it around 4am Thursday morning, but why can’t I just focus and punch this thing out? Why do I need to hit that deadline before I get to work? I have always been this way, and I feel like I’m getting worse, but probably, I’m just the same as I’ve always been- lazy, unable to focus. Or is it that my constant nearness to computers has finally shifted the way I work, to such a degree that I can’t sit on one thing for more than a few milliseconds? I know I’ll get it done, but I really want to do it right. But the wanting is apparently not enough. And if it isn’t, what could be?
Finished. 4703 words. Not bad. Tomorrow I’ll proofread that shit and add citations and such. Thursday I’ll have to give a five minute presentation about it, but I’ll probably just go to class unprepared and ramble on until they ask me to stop.