Despair

I am trying very hard not to despair.
I am trying not to think the worst is coming, that the majority of americans actually wish discrimination upon their fellow countrymen.
I am trying not to think that we are going to openly declare our intent on Empire.
I am trying not to think that our environment is going to get worse and that our cost of living will go up.
I am trying not to think that the world, which held its breath until yesterday, is now ready to fight against our country.
I am trying not to think that a majority in our nation believe that there should be no separation of church and state, and all the discrimination and disparity that will entail.
I am trying not to think that we are steadily allowing superstition and fear to rule our lives.
I am trying not to think that the vote was stolen quietly by Diebold, Sequoia and Electronic Systems & Software. By their black boxes that don’t allow for a manual recount.
I am trying not to think about all the voters whose votes, regardless of the outcome, simply did not count. Because they sent in absentee ballots (fearful they would be turned away from the polls, or that electronic voting devices would not properly report their vote). Because 135000 people were challenged in Ohio and had to cast provisional ballots. Ballots that will not be counted.

These are things I’m trying not to think about.

Yet, I can not.